i dont know what i feel anymore its kind of scary like im just empty and all the lights shut down and im just stuck in a darkness which i have to snap myself out of, like im just existing but not living walking around like a lost ghost waiting to move on and let go, i dont know whether im coming or going most of the time, whether im im in a daydream or reality and sometimes it hides the hurt, so i choose to hide from reality because deep down it scares me, i long for sleep yet find it hard to even manage it sometimes, and perhaps im lying when i say sometimes because honestly i dont think it is, my thoughts are just always there dragging me down and i cant escape them or run, i just want to run away from myself but thats not even possible, reality is a prison to me right now and im just thinking where is my mind?